What does it mean to be vulnerable? We all know the feeling, no doubt. However, can you put it into words? Perhaps it is the feeling of fear? Perhaps it is the action of letting go? Or, perhaps, it is the doorway to truth?
Don’t lie to yourself. Being vulnerable is terrifying. Putting oneself in the open, taking the bullets and the arrows through the flesh, becoming an open target for anyone who’s willing to take a shot. Stepping out into the cross fire, saying here I am and knowing damn well you’ll be shot, “ugh” right in the kidney. How many people are willing to do that? How many people do you know who are willing to take that kind of pain and hurt and step into the open, becoming completely vulnerable.
Becoming completely vulnerable is letting go. Letting go of what has been pulling you back, what you’ve been hiding behind, or what you hope to find. Acceptance of the present and forgetting the experiences of the past and the expectations of the future. This is who you are right now. Accepting that to yourself is one thing, but showing that acceptance to another is a whole other. Perhaps that’s what love is? Letting go of what you’ve done or hope to be and looking at the other, saying this is who I am, take it or leave it, do with me as you wish, I am yours. This is all I am and may ever be, is that enough for you?
That is quite scary isn’t it? What if they say “bah, no thank you, goodbye!” Then you’ll feel awfully sad. Why don’t they like me? Or what’s wrong with me? The list goes on and on. However, who’s to say something is wrong with you? What’s to say something is not wrong with them? These questions and in a way, excuses, are not problems to a solution, but curtains hiding the truth. Falsely placing blame on others and yourself. What if no one is to blame?
That which does not present truth or wisdom, I want no part of.
The truth is that there is good and bad. There is good in you, just like there is some bad. I think that being vulnerable allows you to see this truth, fully clear and clean. Without it, we would not be able to fully experience the bad, but we would also not be able to fully experience the good.
Somewhere between the two, is probably where this wisdom lies.